Up and down isolation emotions
Isolation journal:
Monday. Felt a bit out of sorts. Got an assignment done. Made a structured plan for the week and felt better after that. Had a nice phone call with a friend.
Tuesday. Woke up feeling peaceful and refreshed after a good night's sleep. Smashed through some tasks and went for a long walk. Felt really energetic all day.
Wednesday. A little slow to start today but got some things done and had a bit of spare time to read. Went for another walk. Felt peaceful and positive.
Thursday. Felt sad and directionless all day. Tried to follow my daily routine but I couldn't focus. Kept finding myself in tears for no reason. Nothing seemed to lift my mood. Not a good day.
Friday. Woke up feeling a bit groggy from the one-too-many glasses of wine the night before. Couldn't will myself out of bed til midday. Had a shower, made a cup of tea and got to work. Feeling a little better. Onwards and upwards.
Being home all the time is so strange. For me, it's completely new. My emotions have been all over the place. Some days are really successful, and I feel more calm and productive than a normal day at university. But on other days, I just feel so low. I feel like some of the colour of life has faded away. I wonder how long we will be confined to our homes like this.
When not a lot is actually happening in my day-to-day, what is it that determines my moods? Why do some days just feel so much easier than others? Is it the weather? My period? The moon and stars? No matter what is causing it, I guess I'll just have to get used to managing these up and down isolation emotions.
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